Reflections before class

2009-08-25

Hello everyone, my name is Sarah and I am a reformed school slacker. I am 33 years old and this is my third attempt at completing my postsecondary education.

Right now, I'm wondering what, exactly, I am doing at a place like Dawson.
I feel rather old here, among all these spring chickens, and quite out of place. After all, I am the age of the average teacher here. At least I know my way around the school.

Having said that, I am in the nursing program, where most people have university degrees or significant life experience. Whereas I am stuck here as a university dropout (without even a transcript to show for it) and none of those experiences that, in some people's view, make one a whole person. Apparently, though, I am smart, and talented, and very capable of partaking in this experience.

Incidentally, I am enjoying my time here so far. It helps when one isn't buried in soul-crushing loneliness!

Enough blathering.

2009-08-28

Apparently, the bar that I frequent on a regular basis is closing its doors. Whether or not that's permanent is, as I write this, up for review. In fact, I am at the bar as I write this.

Another thing that annoyed me is that I missed one of my coworkers, this guy that I'm somewhat interested in, by about 15 minutes. Ironically, I went home to change my pants and stopped at the pharmacy to test a perfume, and that's what cost me the extra time.

God, maybe I do belong here after all! It seems that being immature keeps me young.

new notes and literary devices

1. we infer, but the text implies.
2. "in media res" - in the middle of things (Latin)
3. loaded situation (but do we really talk about these things in real life??)

august 28, 2009 - class

Here I am again in my 8 am Intro to College English class, and I'm still wondering what I'm doing here.

I have to say, though, that the instructor is very engaging, nice, and funny, and that goes a long way towards helping me feel more at ease.

Another thing that I need to do that will help me feel better: DROP THE ATTITUDE! I was the same way at the same age, so...just lose it. It'll make me feel more at home here.

Aside: I think I want to a literary analysis of "Howl" by Allan Ginsberg. Ya.